We Are Stardust

Tuesday night, 11/15/16, Time awoken was around 4 p.m.

I had woken up after my first dream and found myself underneath all of my covers clutching pillows and what not with a cold sweat and the after effect of death like my usual premonition dreams, I could still feel the deep slit in my throat though it wasn't even physical, it was somewhere around 10 in the morning so I wanted to sleep more and my dream was pissing me off  so I forced myself to sleep more due to exhaustion.

Right into the dream I landed myself smack dab in the middle of what appeared to be something of a concentration camp within a bleak crumbling tin warehouse that had obviously seen better days, my hand hurt and so did my eyes as I took in these surroundings and soon I noticed the other people that were in my current position. What was happening and what we were doing there was a complete mystery even as the dream took its usual twists and turns I was entirely confused as to why I was assembling part for what looked like cars or parts to be put inside machines. At one point the dream shifted into nightmare and went 360 as I heard the shouts of a girl being drug through the stone slabs on the flooring, she was bloody and I couldn't see her face but like my other dream her hair was brunette and she appeared thin and in need of assistance. I believe I was keeping to myself until we locked eyes and that's when I knew it, obviously I know this girl and she knew me because the second we saw each other the gaurd that was dragging her had to put up a fight just to keep the woman orderly. She screamed something but I can't recall what it was, maybe everything just went silent? But he attempted to strike her and the next moment I was on top of the man letting my fists pumbled down in a fury so violent his face caved in; who is this woman and why must I protect her? She had grabbed onto me crying until we were separated and I never saw her again, I had a feeling something terrible was going to take place, I could sense it over and over again.

I can't remember anything after that, but the next part I was at my post assembling parts like we had in the beginning and I could feel such a bitter hunger inside me that I could vomit, perhaps they were starving us? Throughout this dream I recall myself relentlessly fighting gaurds and attempting to save people from their deaths only to enforce the very thing. The warehouse grew more vacant until it was just me and another boy, I believe we had grown to be friends in the dream because it seemed like we had known eachother for years but something happened to him and it wasn't pleasent. It made me snap and somehow I became that wolf from my first dream, skin turned to fur and the whole nine yards. Not like Werewolf or anything just a big ass wolf and I can't even remember the color of myself. The dream dropped me back at the warehouse and it was just splattered with blood, I believe I had mauled everyone except for the girl I was saving, she was still alive and somehow we ran out of there together but we were constantly followed. I then woke up.

Everything just felt cold and wrong and for some stupid reason I wanted to cry, I don't want to sleep anymore. I regret having this bodily nature to rest every night my dreams are nightmares that I cannot escape.