We Are Stardust

Wensday night, 11/30/16, Time awoken was around 5 p.m.

After talking to you and Stephen for awhile I watched Youtube and worked out before taking my medication, I went to bed unlike these past few nights were I had been just high off my presciptions fighting rest since my dreams were terrifying me.

I found myself in what appeared to be an old motel like area, everything was dark and water dripped from rusty cracks in the ceilings as I was now making my way upstairs. Each time I went up a step there would be a loud squeak and for some reason I slowly became unsettled and then I became aware of what kind of dream this was turning out to be. I could feel my heart beat inside my chest picking up, the little child inside wanting to run from this place and hide somewhere under the bed seemed to pound his fist behind the heavy heartbeat that now thudded begging to wake up. But you see this is one of those things were you know you are sleeping but you just can't find yourself the will to rise from slumber.

I remember someone rushing out of one of the rotting apartment doors to grab me, I struggled but in attempt to free myself didn't have the strength against this attacker. The man had plunged something like a needle into my neck and I felt whatever inside go into my body, it was that numbing sensation you get at the dentist office. You know? Like when they put that cherry red shit in your mouth to prevent pain while drilling in your teeth? It was like that but it was heavy and spread thicker throughout me as I felt everthing go and the man braced me in his arms and drug me into his apartment.

I don't remember much but it's just one of those dreams that steadily drives itself off the fucking railroad tracks of sanity, where the train collides with the town and everyone dies.

I had blacked out but came to myself wrapped up in some rope or wire? I still can't tell but I was paralized and it didn't matter that this fucker had my subconious on lock down. I wasn't killed but you can tell what happens next so..yeah I just had to get this out of my mind or I would go crazy.